that feeling

that feeling you get in your gut after you meet someone new and you think...maybe just maybe he might be different.

it never really happens that way though right?
correct.

What to say when its all over?

im still not even sure i know how to feel about all of this. kinda weird...

gone pro

Macbook that is. it feels so different to be banging the keys of a macbook. i feel freeeeee<

Church...

I honestly dont understand why kids are forced to go to church. do adults even realize that by forcing religion down a kids throat entails them to be rebellious later on in life? I used to go to a church that i enjoyed. i loved it, i even joined the band and im terrified to sing in front of people, but i did it so that i could be a part of my church family but of course mother dearest stepped in and destroyed that dream very qiuickly. so i dont waste your time, let me shorten this story by saying i have now been forced to go to a church that i dont feel comfortable in and i feel judged as well, not to mention that almost everyone that sits in there is fake, oh yea...and the pastors wife doesnt like kids so i bet you could guess how i feel about her right? i miss my church, i miss my old life before december, im so fucking angry here. i hate you virginia, you have brought me nothing but bad luck since ive been here.
FUCK YOU VERY MUCH.

if its love

Run as fast as you can.
If he says you can trust him just know that he is a liar
If he says that he's into you, well we all know how that goes
If he says he'll be the one to love you and always be there for you

its a joke.

Remember that they allllll say this. it never fails

You know that i could use somebody.

My new inspiration. pixie lott. the way she sings use somebody just captivates me, ahh one day, hopefully soon ill be big, one can only pray...

i just want it to be over.
i just want to float into nothing and let it alll be over, i want the feeling to go away.
i cant stand it anymore
and the worst part is he has no idea...