that feeling

that feeling you get in your gut after you meet someone new and you think...maybe just maybe he might be different.

it never really happens that way though right?
correct.

What to say when its all over?

im still not even sure i know how to feel about all of this. kinda weird...

gone pro

Macbook that is. it feels so different to be banging the keys of a macbook. i feel freeeeee<

Church...

I honestly dont understand why kids are forced to go to church. do adults even realize that by forcing religion down a kids throat entails them to be rebellious later on in life? I used to go to a church that i enjoyed. i loved it, i even joined the band and im terrified to sing in front of people, but i did it so that i could be a part of my church family but of course mother dearest stepped in and destroyed that dream very qiuickly. so i dont waste your time, let me shorten this story by saying i have now been forced to go to a church that i dont feel comfortable in and i feel judged as well, not to mention that almost everyone that sits in there is fake, oh yea...and the pastors wife doesnt like kids so i bet you could guess how i feel about her right? i miss my church, i miss my old life before december, im so fucking angry here. i hate you virginia, you have brought me nothing but bad luck since ive been here.
FUCK YOU VERY MUCH.

if its love

Run as fast as you can.
If he says you can trust him just know that he is a liar
If he says that he's into you, well we all know how that goes
If he says he'll be the one to love you and always be there for you

its a joke.

Remember that they allllll say this. it never fails

You know that i could use somebody.

My new inspiration. pixie lott. the way she sings use somebody just captivates me, ahh one day, hopefully soon ill be big, one can only pray...

i just want it to be over.
i just want to float into nothing and let it alll be over, i want the feeling to go away.
i cant stand it anymore
and the worst part is he has no idea...

:)

Yea,
after everything this year i can finally put a smiley face in the title section.
i am so happy to admit that everything is finally falling into place again...i was wondering when i would get the chance to say that:)

Put on a happy face

Even when your dieing inside.
or else your out of this house.

cool.

life

In life your taught to remain positive, because if you do that then you succed. i think thats its bull shit. it takes more energy for me to be happy then it ever would to be negative.
heres a little secret.
I hate my life, and the saddest part is...i dont even feel guilty saying it anymore.

people please!

A blue waffle!?
protectttt yourselves!
what is wrong with you!?
ever heard of a CONDOM!?
what the hell...what. the. HELL!?

Im prettyyy sure im gonna have to find a new fav. color now...greeatttttttt.

Time to phone dad and tell him our colors outskies.
awsome.

Dont hook it up

I will not hookup.
I will not hookup.
I will not hookup.
I will not hookup.
I will not hookup.
I will not hookup.

Everrrr again.

Its Fantasmic!

I just created a new word for my profound vocabulary. i like this...i like this alot:)))

My Best Friends dad is dying.
the love that i once knew is gone for good.
Im broken hearted.

This Year is gonna be greeeattttt right?

ha, yea sure.

First Snow:)

Ruined my plans but warmed my heart:)

Maybe?

I May Have finally gotten what i wanted...:)

Its Almost Time.

"There are many things that i would like to say to you, but i cant find the words in my head."-Diane Birch(Rewind)

yea, i really do miss you i guess. wow, two months on monday.

Gone.

I hate you for abandoning me when i needed you most.
I hate you for not being there.
I hate you because you dont exist to me anymore.
I hate you because its so much easier than thinking about the good times with you.
I hate everything because its no longer the same.

"nothing stays the same forever"

you werent joking...

Changes.

I want everything to go back to normal.
No more changes.
pleaseee.

Back to school Week.

Yes, the back to school night is back.
the night where we all have to assemble the perfect outfits and have the perfect hairstyle and arrive in the perfect way so that maybe we might have a fighting chance at liking school. well ill be honest...tonigt thats me. why? well for the past five years the first day of school has meant anxiety and headaches the night before. tonight, ive had an epiphany..."new me" usually i never ever follow this rule but i beleive that the sayne " i think, there for i do" should be practiced daily because with that we find the strength in us we never saw. so tomorrow will be just that for me, even though my other half is in colorado and this is the first year ive had to go to school without her for the last five yeas and the fact that i didnt really get the guy, there is always one thing that im going to remember this year for times when the going gets tough.

It only gets better from here.

Yours Truly,

Chloe B.